Hi Everyone! It's been a very, very, very long time since the last time I have updated my blog with a blog post. I'm so sorry for that.

How have you been?

I started tertiary studies at the beginning of the year and a lot has happened since then. I did have some ups and downs.

I was well pleased with the grades I earned from 3 out of 4 courses. I passed 3 and failed the 4th miserable, well a D. Is that considered miserable? I have to say that Mathematics is not my favoured subject.

Anyways, I'll fast forward a few months...

June:
In June I have to say that it has been my favourite month so far this year because I felt so relaxed and carefree although I was preparing for my mid-year exams. These exams has determined whether I could get into my desired course or not. Unfortunately, I didn't get the best marks because I failed Maths. Alternatively, instead of studying Bachelors, I got offered a place in Diploma of business. I am very much glad that I am not repeating any courses.

Towards the end of June, I was worked for my parent's since exams are over. I think I handles my time pretty well (this is when I felt so carefree).

July:
Since July hit, for about another 2 weeks I worked and worked for hours and hours (up to 11-12 hours a day). I practically didn't have a life in these 3 weeks worth of holidays, LOL!

Other than that, I did get to see some of my close friend's. I hung out with them from morning to night which was pretty fun! I got to watch Dawn of the Planet of the Apes. I  DEFINITELY WOULD RECOMMEND THIS MOVIE! It's such an intense movie. I felt like I didn't even blink whilst watching the film.

In addition, I spent so much money. In calculation, I definitely have spent over 1k because I was happy that I got accepted in the Diploma programme. I bought myself an iPad Air and gave my Dad my iPad 2 since he wanted an electronic device to watch Chinese dramas/programmes, and I wanted a new iPad, so...ohwell :) Along with my new iPad, I also bought myself a screen guard and a red Apply case! I was so happy when I bought that. I also bought a new pair of Nike shoes, lingerie(finally), Kathmandu jacket, and hoodies! I felt like it was about time I bought casual clothing, LOL since I don't wear so much casual clothing. I felt like I was so dressed up for Uni all the time so yee that's why I bought casual clothing. Oh! and also I bought new pyjamas since it's Winter here in New Zealand!

It's raining outside at the moment :/

Anyways,
yesterday (Sunday at work)
I felt so like not myself. I think I had mood swings, one moment I'm fine and happy, the next I'm grumpy and lazy. I was so grumpy because my mum went to do unnecessary things when it was busy and just left my alone doing everything.

I was so effen depressed during the night (no idea why) and this worker took it to the next level because they were playing nicknames or something and he was like "I'll call you fat girl or pork chop" I was so fucken angry and I wanted to cry on the spot but instead I went to the back and sat down and I was telling myself not to cry but eventually tears just started to roll down my eyes...then I went to the toilet to wipe my tears away and thought that I'd stop crying but obviously I cried some more when I left the toilet....then I couldn't take it anymore and then I took my smart phone and my handbag with me and left work to go home...I literally was crying and driving 160km/h because I wanted to get home as soon as I can so I could cry in the dark in my bed, alone. I literally cried out loud and lasted for an hour. My eyes were so red and puffy when I saw myself in the mirror wiping down my face. I felt so hurt because I'm so insecure with my size because I'm big for an Asian. I was soooo hurt, my feelings were hurt it doesn't help when that guy calls my fat girl, even if it was a joke. I was just so hurt. It felt like I cried my heart out, I meant I did cry my heart out. I felt so much better because I had built up my hurt feelings from previous days and cried them out.
In the end, I didn't expect my holiday to end with hurtful comments. I meant, I'm human, I have feelings too.